(1966)

It was in 1966 :

I used to work in Auroville office. At that time it was just opposite the ashram i. e. Francious house. I used to send flowers as and when I wished and even write to Her whatever I felt. She always used to send me flowers and reply also. Her grace granted me this privilege.

On 2nd Jan. I had drawn my aspiration and wrote few lines :-"Let the burning fire......"

Jan.3.66

I had send the card to Her with New Year resolution.

She send the FLOWERS : grace; Surrender; Joy of faithfulness; Love towards Divine; Physical aspiration; Sweet thoughts.

The message of the year was given to all :- "Let us serve the truth"

Jan.5.66

FLOWERS :

Purity; Joy of faithfulness; Divine love;

I wrote to Her that as I am a blank child (as everyone for Her is) how am I able to serve the truth ?

She replied, "Be simple like a child and Love the Divine from your heart and you will be able to serve the truth."

Jan.9.66

FLOWERS :

Integral Protection; call for the grace;

Purity; Harmony; Physical endurance; Joy of faithfulness; Consciousness turned towards Divine; all over protection. She sent beautiful Blessings also.

Jan.19.66

FLOWERS :

Roses; Integral Protection. She sent a letter :-

Dwijata, My dear child, Here is the mantra for you. Be quiet and Confident everything will be all right. With Love and blessings Mantra Sri Aurobindo Saranam mam. (Sri Aurobindo is my refuge)

Jan.22.66

Richer than the rich as I depend on Divine.

She replied,

Dwijata, My dear child,

Keep your resolution and you are sure to reach your goal.

Love and blessings. She sent this with beautiful flowers.

Feo.1.66

She sent a lovely card with "Love and Blessings" Mother (in red)

This is to welcome the truth. (She sent lovely flowers also)

Feb.7.66

FLOWERS :

Love of Divine; Pink Roses; Peace; Immortality; Joy of faithfulness.

I am not specially gifted child; It would be better to leave the world.

She sent a small pretty card in which was written "Love" in Red hand. The most unparallel thing from Divine, the most valuable gift on the earth.

Feb.9.66

FLOWERS :

Protection; Joy of faithfulness; Peace; Love towards the Divine devotion.

of Divine, that surpises everything and that will make me everything written by me.

The only thirst within is to be with Her for a moment. She sent a lovely card written "Love" on it.

Feb.21.66

To be in marble temple with ocean wide pink flowers around. And Love of Divine Her Love.

She knows aspiration of the heart. She knows all the aspiration of heart

Feb.24.66

As I want to serve Her and know the truth, people may laugh or mock at me. I prayed to Her.

She wrote :

Dwijata, My dear child, you have chosen the right path and your aspiration will be fulfilled.

With Love and Blessings.

Mother.

Feb.26.66

FLOWERS :

Joy of faithfulness; Grace; Peace; Purity. She wrote :

Dwijata, My dear child, the Divine is With you.

"Love", Mother.

This is all Her grace that she takes so much care.

I feel difficult to explain Her grace and compassion.

March.3.66

FLOWERS :

Grace; Love towards Divine; Peace

March.15.66

FLOWERS :

Sri Aurobindo's consciousness; Peace; aspiration; quite mind;

Auroville : still time to be ready for habitation.

March.24.66

During this time Auroville project was taken up.

The project is very big. It sounds as fairy tale, but it is Divine's vision.

April.5.66

FLOWERS :

Sweet thoughts; Joy of faithfulness; grace;

constant remembrance of the Divine.

She wrote: Dwijata, My dear child, physical exercises are excellent not only for health but also for integral yoga. You must continue it regularly.

With Love and Blessings.

It was Her grace that granted me the dress of exercise. She was very happy that I go for exercise.

In my school days I was always wishing for such atmosphere and I was very happy to go to play-ground.

April.18.66

FLOWERS :

Victory; Sweet thoughts; Divine Love.

I used to ask everything to Her. Even minor thing like going to French class etc. This was really Her grace that she fulfilled all my wishes. It was Her tremendous grace that she gave the liberty to write to Her and she responded.

I always repeated and sang the mantra she gave while doing exercise in the play-ground. She was very happy for this.

I always remembered, and constantly

and continuously repeated... Mother Sri Aurobindo,......

I read books written by them. I read whatever I could understand.

I was always anxious to listen about them from other sadhaks. It was joy to hear about them from other sadhaks.

April.25.66

FLOWERS :

All over Protection; Victory; Peace.

She sent the message with Her blessings.

I was always very happy to arrange the flowers sent to me in my room in a vase. Needless to say, it gave special atmosphere.

April.29.66

There was heavy cyclon. I had never experienced such cyclon in my life.

Somehow, I don't feel disturbed from within on the contrary as if she is protecting me fully.

At night when there was heavy rain and thunder I felt as if I was on Her lap.

May .5.66

To day I asked Her permission for Darshan on 24th May i.e. this month for my spiritual birthday.

She replied, " Dwijata, My dear child, Yes I shall see you on 24th May at 10 a.m. for your first anniversary.

With love and Blessings. It was Her inexpressible grace to be so kind to me.

May. 13.66

I always had the wish to serve the Divine. She knew this, she knew very well that I would have served them from my heart. When I came she had retired i.e. She was active but did not come out.

But she knew my aspiration and she was very happy for this.

May.16.66

I aspired to see Her alone and so I wrote accordingly.

She replied, "Dwijata, My dear child,

Yes, I shall see you on the 24th at 10 a.m.

Blessings (Mother)

She always replied with beautiful flowers. She was always kind to me and this was again nothing but Her grace.

May. 24.66

FLOWERS:

Protection; Immortality .

Today I went to Her. I showed the card. She liked it. She received me with all Her Love. She wiped my tears. I had nice conversation with Her. I asked about Her real form; and she said it can be seen with the third-eye only and Her real form is very luminious.

She said, " Thousands of people want to see me. But you have to see me but you have to see me with third eye."

After seeing Her I felt new with different force and different deep peace. I felt very happy and the whole day was so Peaceful and happy.

June.20.66

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Peace; harmony

I was learning French from a good school teacher. She had arranged for me. She took care for everything.

July. 1.66

A small sweet bouquet of Flowers:

Divine's presence; Immortality; Consciousness turned towards Divine Supramental descend in the physical; pychic peace.

She poured Her love and Her blessings, Her grace and her sympathy.

July.20.66

I had painted a letter:

Oh Mother ! My heart, My love, My hopes and My life. Bring victory of my soul.

She sent me a small very pretty card with red hand "Love" (M)

I was extremely happy to receive it and I felt so much of love from Her that I kept it on my chest while going to sleep.

July.27.66

I did not have any blood relation in Ashram. Somehow I could not tolerate the behaviour of few people.

She wrote to me :- "Dwijata, My

dear child, Yes, You are my child and now not worry about the behaviour of any body."

With Love and blessings.

She always patted me and Her love was su ;h that made me forget everything.

August. 1.66

FLOWERS :

Purity; Peace Consciousness turned towards the Divine; Sweet thoughts.

I had sent an aspiration which I had painted ( Forehead eye - tears - falling down - a garland in the shape of heart) Within this I had written my prayers.

She sent me a card and beautiful flowers.

She always received anything from me with Love and treated me as my own mother.

August.15.66

I sent flowers to Her.

We had Balcony Darshan. People are happy to have Her Darshan. The day was peaceful.

She sent me one pretty Rose-tenderness.

A flower from Her. It had inexpressible joy. It signifies a lot. A flower from Her means Divine love and I feel very lucky to have it. There can be no better luck for a human being than this.

August.26.66

FLOWERS :

Grace; Purity; Peace in cell; Peace; Protection.

I always aspired to have Her Darshan. I always wanted to be near Her to serve Her. She had Her limitation of time still she never wanted to disappoint Her child. I am grateful that she always tried to call me.

I knew little French. She was always happy if I write to her even in broken French.

October. 1.66

I used to write whatever I felt and Merciful mother gave this opportunity for which I am ever be grateful to Her.

I wrote send my love to the Lord-Love that demands nothing but love. The love that will unite me with Him.

She replied, " Your love has gone to the Lord Open your heart to His love which is with you."

(Blessings Mother)

She sent this loving letter with beautiful flowers. I felt very happy to read this.

It is Her grace that gives joy.

October. 3.66

To day I prayed to Her : She must make me ready that all my being be penetrated with the Love and light of the Lord.

She replied," Dwijata, My dear child, Be steady in your aspiration and it is sure to be granted."

(Love- Mother)

October. 8.66

Grace; aspiration;

I asked what ever I wished and thought I never hesitated to write to Her.

To day I wrote whether the Lord will forgive for all crimes and sins.

She replied, "The Lord loves and He

understands. He helps to transform. He never punishes nor blames. He askes only for sincere aspiration."

Love (M.)

October. 12.66

FLOWERS :

Grace; Pink rose; Joy of faithfulness; purity; sincerity.

To day I sent flowers to Her with the card, "Love"

She sent pretty card with "Love" written on it.

She showed Her love to me and what else I want - This is all inexpressible.

I pray to Her to make me worthy of Her love and Her care.

October. 15.66

FLOWERS :

Victory; aspiration in the physical; White roses; Purity; Radha's consciousness; Plasticity; Faithfulness.

To day I wrote to Her that I have fear and feel that Something will harm me.

She replied, " Nothing can harm you

if you don't fear so fear not, and be

quiet and calm - all will be all right."

(Love and Blessings)

She protects me and looks after me. Divine Mother protects Her children and without Her protection it is difficult to exist. Human being cannot see the aspiration of heart. It is only Divine Who can see the aspiration of the heart of any human being.

I see people talking about yoga but I don't personally speak about it.

October. 25.66

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Call for the grace; grace; peace; Devotion; Plasticity.

To day I wrote to Her asking whether she has given right to anybody to interfere in my life of career or for residence.

She replied, " Dwijata, My dear child, I have given to nobody the right to interfere in your life. You belong to the Lord and it is the Lord who will guide you. Be quiet and steady - You shall reach goal."

With all my Love,

(Mother)

This letter carried special joy in my heart

which I cannot express in words

October. 28.66

FLOWERS:

Grace; Devotion; Joy of faithfulness

I wrote that I am Her pure child and to make me such that I become pure flame.

She replied, "Dwijata, My dear child,

keep firm in your resolution and everything will be alright.

Love (Mother)

November. 7.66

To day I sent to Her flowers and she also sent flowers with a card, "To, Dwijata, With love and Blessings" (Mother)

She is all Anand, all Love and all Gracious.

The whole day passes in joy and special Anand in heart.

November. 11.66

FLOWER :

Physical Aspiration; Peace;

Devotion; Purity; Integral Progress; Peace.

I received a card with "Love" written by Her.

This is nothing but Her grace. She showers Her love and I feel very Fortunate. There is nothing but Joy in the Heart. The whole day I feel completely new and fresh. I have no words to thank the loving Mother.

November. 14.66

She sent beautiful flowers.

I had written to Her that I am dependant and useless child of Hers.

She replied, "And, what about The Love for the divine?"

I really realised nothing on the earth can surpises the love of the Divine.

November. 16.66

FLOWERS :

Peace; Victory; Psychological Perfection;

Joy of faithfulness; All over protection; Peace; Devotion; (White flowers)

lovely pretty flowers gives me special joy. They make me lively and happy.

November. 24.66

FLOWERS :

Grace; Peace.

She sent me flowers and the message of 24th_ Nov.

November. 28.66

Friendship with Divine; New creation;

FLOWERS :

Peace.

When once I could not attend office work because I was not well, She wrote :

"Dwijata, My dear child, take as much rest as needed and do not worry-soon you shall be all right."

"With my love and Blessings" (M.)

She is all merciful, All compassion.

December. 2.66

I wrote to Her that nobody can understand me except Her and not to leave me.

She replied on a lovely card : "Dwijata, My dear child, My love and Blessings are with you."

(Mother)

This was written in Red, so it has

special significance.

I was very happy to receive this with beautiful flowers.

This time was such that one can feel only the Divine can understand the person i.e. The feelings of the person.

December. 7.66

FLOWERS :

Grace; Peace; harmony; spiritual progress supramental.

She happily wrote to me that she would receive me on 25th

All this was Her grace towards me.

I adore the flowers and the day passes very happily.

December. 25.66

Flowers of bouquet :

Receptively; Energy; Sweet thought; Mental Honesty; Peace; Immortality.

To day I went to Her.

When I went to Her she patted me like a small child. The whole day I remained very happy and went on looking at the card which she gave me.

I felt very happy to have this card because it is very symbolic - Mother

holding her child in hand and the child in a cradle.

I felt I am Her child in Her hand.

December. 12.66

FLOWERS :

Sweet thoughts; Harmony; Plasticity; Joy of faithfulness; Immortality; Peace; friendship with Divine.

She knew that for Her love I would sacrifice anything.

The flowers sent by Her are always radiating Her Love and Force. They give me new life.

(1967)

January. 1.67

Roses; Satchitanand; Divine consciousness;

FLOWERS :

grace; Aspiration in the physical; New creation; Silence; Joy of faithfulness.

She sent the lovely flowers with a pretty card, "To, Dwijata, Bonne anne'e With Love (M.)"

I had sent flowers i.e. garland and my prayers to Her. I prayed :